Fred could just not believe it. From Swansea he'd planned about 4 or 8 buses. But there were 40. No kidding. Or was that from South Wales. It was like Convoy, the movie, along the motorway, with the buses heading down for the centre of London. I must be dreaming, or making this up. Please, Fred, tell me I am not inventing the amazing events of that day. 15 Feb 2003. The buses were lined up along the main road, outside the Art Gallery and the library, and everyone got on board. Everyone. Friends and enemies, husbands and wives, estranged or not. Kids and their parents. Even teenagers out with mum and dad for once. Just ourselves, and yet changed, charged with an energy that came from knowing there were no more coaches - even school buses had been hauled out to make the trip. It was interesting. The day had its drama, as I got soundly slapped in the face with a 'thwack' by the angry and jealous wife of some socialist plonker who'd been after my ass (pardon the expression). But even my dressing down did not spoil the peace, for me. I told her something stupid like I wanted to be her friend, and smiled. 'And stop bloody smiling at me' she screamed. But I could not 'wipe that smile off my face', no matter how I tried. The day was so fine, so free, that NOTHING could spoil it. Not then, not now. Not even the war itself, later, killing killing for nothing but bucks, could spoil that day we marched. Seen from here, the day, all the people in it, all of them, without exception, remain beautiful, as if in a glowy light. We were right, all of us, the woman who slapped me, her stupid husband, their wonderful kids, me, the students carrying posters that made me cry with laughter - make tea not war, Tony Blair a teapot on his head. Life went on, petty things, do I have to shout this three word chant, can I skip ahead to the hippy drummers and dancers in pink? Hey this march includes absolutely everybody. I had been on so many marches, including a march of a million for the end of the miner's strike, but this was completely different. It was much, much bigger. It took a long time to get into Hyde Park, or whichever park was it, and I felt I knew the trendy wrought iron gates as one knows the shape of a friend's hand. Whenever I see them now I say - ah that home of ours that day; we'd sanctified the park by our presence and the bodily visits of Bianca Jagger, believe it or not, Jesse Jackson. Huge figures, towering puppets, singers (I can't remember which was which). God what had we done to deserve this wonderful day? Our roaring and clapping. We'd all turned up. Just got on the bus. And went. That's all we'd had to do to deserve that day. Wasn't it?
Love (and no fear)
Nell xx